Gay Guys, How Dare You Be Slightly Overweight! [Movie Transcript]

(Playing ♫ Faith ♫ by George Michael)

Well, I guess it would be nice
If I could touch your body
I know not everybody
Has got a body like you (Ohh!)

But I've gotta think twice
Before I give my heart
I know all the games you play
Because I play them too

Ohh, but I need some time off
From that emotion
Time to pick my heart up off the floor...

Brett: I think having taught the Queer Eye on America course, I was thinking deeply about how mass media creates and reflects certain stereotypes. One of the things I was really struck by was how there's a very narrow definition of what it means to be gay in America, which seems to be coming out of film and television.


I think of our own alum, Carson Kressley (Class of '91), and I think about how he and shows like Queer Eye and Will & Grace create this very narrow definition. To be fair, I think it happens for every sexual orientation, except for maybe transsexual or transgender, which is an orientation--it's a lot of identity politics.


We just have these very narrow slots for what you can be, so if you're a lesbian, you've got to be butch (not femme) because that way, you're not messing up everybody's radar. And if you're gay, if you don't look like a New York urbanite, then Oh My God, How dare you be slightly overweight or How dare you be a Bear or a Cub! Or how dare you be... anything that doesn't work within people's traditional parameters.

It's amazing to me how people are so simplistic and they get rid of the beauty of the complexity of the individual.

OK ----------> LOLICON! [Transcript]

(Playing ♫ Fett's Vette ♫ by MC Chris)

Megan: You'd be surprised by how many people, like just on campus, actually like tentacle sex. It's gross!

Adaeze: Who the hell likes tentacle sex?

DeLue: Actually, you shouldn't put that in the movie.

Megan: (laughs) Don't put that in the movie!


KATSUCON 2009 (Anime Convention)
Crystal City, VA
Megan: Yaoi is explicit man-on-man action. It doesn't always have to be a man; it could be a boy... sadly. But there is definite sex: sex is shown, you can see it, it happens. Shonen-ai is cute. Shonen-ai literally translates to "boy love." It's really cute, usually between two high schoolers. It shows the progression of the relationship, and at the end, you know they "get together," but sex doesn't happen. Shojo-ai is the exact same as shonen-ai, but shojo means "girl," so it's "girl love." It's cute, it shows the progression of the relationship, they kiss, that happens. In yuri, lesbian sex happens.

80 MINUTES LATER

Megan: They have a picture of a little girl, as she gets older, and they have a line (getsture) that says OK and then it's--

DeLue: NOT Okay--

Megan: --Lolicon!-- Which they didn't say was not okay!

DeLue & Megan: (Laughter) OK... Lolicon.

DeLue: Not making any value judgments here!

Adaeze: Just be aware, do not read that because I made the mistake. I was like, "Oh yaoi!" NO! I got shotacon and I was scarred for life!

Megan: I do believe it's actually illegal here in the States.

Adaeze: Yeah, so if you have it, then you might go to jail. And WHY DO YOU HAVE IT?

DeLue & Adaeze: WHY??

Megan: SHAME ON YOU!

DeLue: YOU'RE A BAD PERSON!! (laughter) ...I'm not supposed to refer to the camera, am I?

TIME LAPSE TRANSITION

Megan: Futanari, like I said, breaks it down to "dickgirl." It's usually a woman who--I'm not gonna say that they all do--has extremely large breasts, a vagina, no testicles, and a huge penis--

DeLue: (gestures) MASSIVE PENIS!

Megan: --where the clitoris is supposed to be. So, th-th-that...

DeLue: That's what you've got. (laughter)

Megan: That's what it is.

DeLue: It is what it is.

Megan: Of course, y'know, they'll have the ones with whom you can't really tell; they'll have a flat chest but they'll still have the peni and the vagina and it's not cool.

Adaeze & DeLue: (mockingly) Peni?

DeLue: It's a penis!

Megan: Shut up!

DeLue: Finish the word, you're missing one letter on the end!

Megan: Peni!

DeLue: SSS!!

TIME LAPSE TRANSITION

Megan: Ahh, furs!

DeLue: She's the furry girl.

Megan: I love furs. A "furry" is a person who usually--I don't want to say atunes himself or sees himself as an animal.

DeLue: They try to become like an animal.

Megan: Yeah. And there are people who take it to an extreme. There are people who do that in every category, and then there are the people who know when to turn it on and off, so... don't get that twisted.

TIME LAPSE TRANSITION

DeLue: That's all that the anime is: a projection of fantasy. And it's been happening forever. Back in the '80s, the feminists said, Look at Barbie. If she were real, Barbie would have to be 6'6" with size 5 feet in 8-inch heels and double-D breasts. They did this projection of what Barbie would look like if she were a real person's size and it was ridiculous! There's been a projection of fantasies forever, and anime is just the most recent and most prolific of these projections.

Adaeze: There are a lot of weird things in anime.

James: And luckily, anime seems all-inclusive with things.

DeLue: It is very inclusive with things. It's very accepting too. If you're into tentacle rape, we will make an anime for you! (applause) We're not going to judge you, we're not going to say "You're a bad person," even though you are! We're just going to make a tentacle rape movie for you and you can buy it.


Adaeze: --Tentacle sex, WOOOO!! (gestures)

DeLue: So you'll get your tentacle sex even though tentacles don't rape people in real life, we'll get your money, and everybody's happy! And that's how anime works. With anime, we will play upon your fantasies, give you something you desire, and get from you something we desire, money.

Rebecca: Which is why a lot of people hate people that get into anime!

DeLue: Why?

Rebecca: Y'know, my sister got into the anime, went to Otakon and everything. Our entire family was hoping that she would "get out of the phase"--

Megan: Oh my god, my mom did too--

Rebecca: --And then she did.

(LAUGHTER)

Megan: (gestures) Here's my self esteem at the beginning of that conversation, and (gestures) here's my self-esteem at the end of that conversation.

JiMBO's Hollywood Screen Kiss [Director's Commentary]

To this day, Billy's Hollywood Screen Kiss is still one of my all-time favorite GLBT movies, after Mambo Italiano, To Wong Foo, D.E.B.S, and The Broken Hearts Club, of course. Although I do find it strange that Sean Hayes, the title character, has deflected all questions about his sexual orientation. I suppose, after playing a flamboyantly gay character on Will & Grace, he doesn't want to be typecast in only that sort of role.


In his own words, "Being an actor, the less people know about my personal life, the more open-minded they can be about each role I play." I respect that, so long as he remains an ally to the GLBTQ community; but still, we're hard-pressed to find openly gay role models in A-List Hollywood.


And the two friends I was referring to are Janelle and Alexis. Janelle and I have been close friends since elementary school, bonded together by the fact that we were the only two black kids living in Pasadena. My coming out only brought us closer; she had figured it out years ago and was very supportive. We still talk, she was the first to write essay responses for my project, and last night I helped "Nelly" move her girlfriend into a new apartment. Unfortunately, Alexis didn't take it as well as I had hoped, and she and I have lost touch in the past couple of years. She married her high school sweetheart in Hawaii over the summer, and I wish them all the best.







UPDATE: Sean Hayes openly discusses his sexuality for the first time ever in the April 2010 issue of The Advocate!

The 4th Annual Gender Bender Dance [Movie Transcript]

Do you plan to attend the Gender Bender Dance?

Bryan: Of course!

Alex: Yeah... I guess I could go.

Becky: Yeah, definitely. We always go. It's a lot of fun.
Gwen: Every year.
Kat: Yep.

Jimmy: I'm definitely going to the Gender Bender Dance.

Lyndsey: I do.

Megan: I do plan to, it sounds like it's going to be a lot of fun.

Are you going to dress as the opposite gender?

Renny: Me and my girlfriend are going to switch clothes.

Megan: I plan to, I ordered these really awesome rainbow pants that have rainbow stars on them.

Lyndsey: No, unfortunately not. It's right after work and I get off at 9:30 so I'm just gonna head over after work.

DeLue: Yeah, I think I'll dress up.

Alex: I will not be dressing up.
James: ...Any reason why?
Alex: Because I like pants! (laughter)

Bryan: I really want to, I hope I have time to get some stuff together. It should be fun.

Gwen: Yes, of course!
Kat: Yeah, why wouldn't we? 'Cause half the fun is dressing up.
Becky: And we try to one-up ourselves every year.
Gwen: Makes me worry about senior year.
Kat: I know, we really can't top what we have planned for this year.
Gwen: No. (laughter)

Travis: I kind of get freaked out by drag queens.

Jimmy: Um, sort of. I've got a lot of stuff this week, so I'm just gonna wear this little sign here that says, "THESE BE GIRL CLOTHES," with this little Commie Pirate Drag Queen on it.


(Playing ♫ We Are Rockstars ♫ by Does That Offend You, Yeah?)

It Was A Risky Move... But It Paid Off [Movie Transcript]

Jaimie: From the beginning, the response to the Gender Bender Dance--Most of the ALLiES members were very supportive, but a few were hesitant because the Gender Bender Dance was a compromise and they really wanted a Drag Show. In general, over the course of all four years, attendance has been pretty high. It has ranged from over 100 people in our most recent year to about 300, which we had our first year.



We get people to challenge gender roles a little bit and to be more comfortable with other ways of living, if only for one night. People also get the chance to meet ALLiES and just have a really good time. I think people have a lot of fun at this event, and I hope that we can put it on for several years after I've graduated.

I Had To Dress More "Feminine" For Work [Movie Transcript]

(Playing ♫ Boys Wanna Be Her ♫ by Peaches)

The Boys Wanna Be Her,
The Girls Wanna Be Her...

Katelin: This summer, I had an internship up in New York City at Northwestern Mutual. It was a pretty corporate environment. I couldn't really feel like I could be myself; I needed to wear my girly dress pants and some kind of feminine top--as much as I could get because I wasn't going extreme. It took away a part of me, I felt when I was there. I wasn't able to actually express who I was and what I'm about necessarily.

Every night when I got home, I threw them in the closet as quickly as I could, got on my bull shorts, my "No Bitchassness" Sean John T-shirt, some sneakers, and just go out, go down to the Village, or wherever I might end up going, so I could try and be myself.

It really does take a lot away from you when you can't express yourself as who you actually are and have to form yourself to fit into a corporate environment. Being of a more masculine gender, you can't do that in Corporate America. That's one of the things I found out that I need to work on before I can get myself ready for the job market and find an appropriate place for me to go.

Our Motto Is: "Do What Makes You Happy and Harms No One" [Transcript]

Becky: So pretty much, Paganism is very much about doing whatever makes you happy and doesn't hurt anyone else, really.

Gwen: It's very individualistic, os it's pretty much what you make of it. So morality and ethics are determined by you, most of the time. There's a lot of talk about making "Pagan Ethics" now, but there isn't really an overarching one, aside from "Don't harm anyone," like Becky said.

Kat: I think, even if there were an overarching moral code, homosexuality wouldn't even be an issue in Paganism, just from the nature of the religion.

Becky: And also, there's historically been a lot of glorification of the sacred nature of sexual contact. There's been documentation of hetero- and lots and lots of homosexual sacred sexual rituals and things like that.

Gwen: I think it's promoted in some of them even, in some Druid sects. I mean, every single Druid I met in the U.K. was a homosexual. (laughter) So, that kinda gives you an idea of how prevalent it is. Maybe it says something about Paganism, maybe it says something about homosexuals, the fact that it draws in those types of people, to certain brances even...

Kat: Well, yeah, it's somewhere that you can be accepted and you can practice freely so...

Gwen: And it's majority male too, so... (laughter)

Kat: (laughter) Well, yeah, Druids.

Everything in the Universe Is Connected [Movie Transcript]

Adaeze: Whatever you believe in, it centers you. If you have any problems, you can pray to your god or meditate or whatever to connect to nature. That's what I think, my idea of God is that God is a higher power but God is also the trees, and people are parts of God.

We're all connected in some way, and once we focus on that connection, we can solve all our problems. The ideas of nature, love, and God are all interconnected, and if we all concentrated on that connection, most of the world's problems wouldn't happen, because greed and all that stuff just get in the way. Just let everyone love each other. That's all I like. (laughter)

Everyone, Attack the Atheist! [Movie Transcript]

Jaimie: This one time I wore a pentacle, which is a star inside a circle, around my neck and two people who worked for my high school asked me if that meant I was Jewish! (laughter) And with derisive tones, as if because it meant I was Jewish, that was a bad thing. I'm like, "You're preparing to discriminate against me for being Jewish because I'm wearing a Wiccan pentacle?!"

And here, as an Atheist, I've felt things too. Every time I'll make a comment about--even trying to get religion on the table to discuss, especially religous affiliation in terms of Anti-Gay behavior/using The Bible for things--immediately, I'll be attacked for that. Without even saying anything negative, without even getting there, y'know? I wasn't even given the chance to say something negative! (laughter) So definitely, there is religous discrimination here.

In Retrospect, Getting Married Wasn't The Wisest Decision [Movie Transcript]

Professor Reitsma: I grew up in a very religious environment, which meant I fought very hard NOT to be gay: I got married, had a child, which complicated the whole Coming Out thing. Although I should make it clear that my son's mother was quite aware that I was gay before we got married. ..Yeah. (laughter) And I went along with it because she said, "You can be gay and still be a dad," and I wanted to be a dad, "Well, you can still be gay and be with me," which I thought was actually pretty cool, at the time. In retrospect, that was not the wisest of choices I could have made. On the other hand, I don't regret having my son. It's just, certain decisions have made my life more complicated.

I understand why it's hard for people to Come Out. Growing up the way I did, it was very hard. It meant saying Goodbye to pretty much your whole family and everyone you grew up with. I have no contact with anyone I grew up with, with the exception of my 93-year-old grandmother... who has met my boyfriend. My mother has come around and so have my immediate siblings. But other than that, all my cousins, the whole environment I grew up in, I have no contact with anymore.

The Bible Preaches Acceptance of Others [Movie Transcript]

Paul: So here we are in Christ Chapel at Gettysburg College. I'm gay and I'm also Episcopalian. The Episcopalian Church is actually being ripped apart ironically over the issue of homosexuality: back in '03, they appointed a gay Bishop and that caused a huge rift in the Church.

Personally, I see the scriptures as being--a lot of people impose themselves and their values. Some people will say, "I don't believe gays should be allowed to live in the Christian community," but then, they don't recognize the fact that passages of The Bible accept and encourage slavery or the abuse of women, so I feel that there are a lot of people who are tempted to pick and choose their choices.

As for me, I believe that most of The Bible definitely leans toward acceptance of people and faith in Christ. So, you can look at it either way: you can decide to subverse yourself and try to discriminate against some people, or you can accept most people in the faith of God.

The Adventures of Marina the Monk [Movie Transcript]

Miranda: A long a time ago, in Bitnia--that's in Asia Minor--there was a man who had a daughter named Mary. And one day this man's wife passed away. And he told Mary, "Listen, I want to renounce all worldly things, enter a monastery, and end my life there." And Mary wanted to go with him, but she couldn't because she was a girl and they didn't allow girls in the monastery obviously. But she persisted. So her father had her hair shaved and she dressed up like a boy and went with him. And there she took the name, Marina.


Miranda: She stayed there a number of years and she gathered a lot of learning. She had a reputation for being very obedient and pious and doing lots of good work like healing people. Therefore, one day the Abbot sends Marina to an inn. The innkeeper's daughter, who's already pregnant by some other soldier, blames her pregnancy on Marina.

When her father, the Innkeeper, finds out, he's furious and he goes to the monastery and tells the Abbot, "Look! This monk who's supposedly so pious , he impregnated my daughter!" "What kind of establishment are you running here?" is basically what he says. The Abbot is also furious and he summons Marina and asks him to explain himself. And Marina simply throws himself on the ground and says, "Forgive me, I have committed a horrible transgression." The Abbot kicks him out of the monastery; Marina waits outside the gate and just sets up there.

After the baby is born, the Innkeeper comes and just deposits the baby in front of him and says, "This is the product of your wickedness! Go ahead and raise it!" And Marina does.

Marina's out there for three years. And the monks are very sorry to see their comrade, Marina, out there. They go to the Abbot and say, "How can we just walk right by him without taking pity on him? This is horrible. Let him back in! This has just been too much punishment." The Abbot lets Marina back in. Marina returns to the monastery with the baby and she remains there for the rest of her life. And eventually, she passes away.


When her body is being prepared for burial, they undress the corpse and find out that she's a woman. And they're very amazed and shocked by this. Immediately, the Abbot begs God for forgiveness. He summons the Innkeeper and says, "Look! Your daughter could not have been made pregnant by this man because this man is NOT a man!" The Innkeeper is also very repentant.

So, everything gets sorted out. And Marina, or Mary, is buried with all respect and honor in the monastery.

I've Known Since I Met You, HAVE YOU MET YOU?! [Director's Commentary]

Yes, I'm one of those people who had the pleasure of meeting Bill back in 2005, when he was not only in the closet but homophobic. Like most people, I knew he was gay the moment we met but when I learned that he wasn't anywhere close to coming out, I didn't really try to be his friend. After some humiliating experiences with "closet cases," I found it best to simply avoid them altogether, especially if they poke fun at gays in order to affirm their heterosexuality. Along with the older ALLiES members, I was happy to put the past behind us and welcome Bill into the group during our senior year; he has become extremely comfortable with his sexuality, and I'm proud of him for being honest with himself and everyone else.


I understand Bill's predicament; for most of us, our families have acted as barriers, preventing us from coming out to everyone. In my house, my father didn't show much hostility towards gay people; he just had the attitude that they didn't really exist and if they did, they only lived in segmented parts of urban areas like NYC. Coming from a socially and politically conservative family, I can imagine that he's had a much harder time gaining full acceptance from them. To this day, he still identifies as a die-hard Republican, and I would chock that up to family influence.

The Importance of Being OUT [Director's Commentary]

Sean and I met at the first ALLiES meeting of 2007, and ever since then he's had a Love-Hate relationship with the group; he believes in being discreet about his sexuality and devote most his efforts to other advocacy groups like the NAACP. He and I have had at least one epic public argument over issues like openness, pride, and a responsibility to the community. One year later, we were able to put aside our differences for this interview, and much to my surprise, his views have changed, I found myself agreeing with some of his responses, and we've kept in touch regularly via FaceBook.


Although I would never call it "a sexual decision," I agree that it is important for people to come out of the Closet, not just for themselves but also for the sake of the community. I think that honesty is always the best policy, and Coming Out lifts a huge burden off one's shoulders--no longer having to hide their desires or switch pronouns in conversation.



And as Sean pointed out, being Out does limit your job opportunities, especially if the company and/or its investors are conservative. The sad truth is that in many states, it's still perfectly legal to fire someone because of their sexual orientation. In fact, two years ago ALLiES participated in a letter writing campaign to get the Employment Non-Discrimination Act through Congress.

When You're Bisexual, You're Hated By Both Sides! [Movie Transcript]

Melissa: Definitely, I think it is really important for me to talk about being bisexual, because basically... you're hated by EVERYONE. I've had gay and lesbian people tell me to my face that they would never date me, because they said, flat out, I would screw around with other people. And y'know, I would cheat on them and ultimately leave them for someone of the opposite sex. Which isn't true. So, you kind of get it on both sides.

In terms of Coming Out, I think it's probably a little bit easier to Come Out as bisexual. My mom was like, "Yeah. I knew. (laughter) You went to Gay Camp." (laughter) I think it's a little bit easier, at least in my personal experience. I can't speak for everyone.

James: So, do you think that your mom hopes you'll end up with a man or...?

Melissa: I think, maybe when I first came out, she actually mentioned, "Oh, you know. Maybe it's just a phase," which really pissed me off. (laughter) But I think now she really doesn't care. I think the only reason she would want me to end up with a guy is because she knows it would be easier for me in society.

But my mom is so super open and supportive of me. And she has more gay friends than I do. (laughter) She goes out to gay bars with her friends. So, yeah, she's really supportive. I don't feel at all that my mom is pushing me to end up with a guy.

I Prefer The KINSEY Scale [Movie Transcript]

Beth: You know the KINSEY Scale?

James: M'hmm.

Beth: 'Cause that's more fluid.

James: Yeah.

Beth: Not sure if "fluid" is the right word, but it's not so...

James: Black and white?

Beth: Yeah, (gestures) you're this and you're this. Because that's confusing.

James: So you identify as... "still trying to figure it out?"

Beth: Yeah, like leaning closer toward--I say I'm bi, and I put on my Facebook profile that I'm interested in men and women, because that's the truth. But at the same time, when I say I'm bisexual, I think of other people I know who are bisexual and I think, "Oh, I'm not anything like them."

But then I realize, I'm not much like people, in general. I don't really identify with girls that much--I'm not saying I'm not a girl--I think it's because I have Asperger's and that makes me different from a lot of people. I can't identify or empathize with people as easily, so sometimes I just can't relate to things so... that's probably why it's more strange to identify with things.

Sorry, I'm Not LIKE THAT! [Movie Transcript]

Miranda: So... I'm sort of Out of the Closet, but not really. It's kind of difficult to be fully Out, I guess, because of my family. I'm not sure how they would take it. I tried twice. And both times, I was shot down pretty quickly.

The first time, my mother said, "Oh, you know, it's just a phase. Don't worry about it." So I just said, "Oh, yeah. Yeah, it's... just a phase."

And then the second time I tried to be more serious about it. I said, "Mom, listen. There's a girl I like. We have a relationship." And then, I remember, she reached her hands over the counter and took my hands in hers and said, very seriously, "Honey, I think you're possessed by demons." Which struck me as odd because, well, I go to church more than she does.

And I grappled with it at first but I'm totally comfortable with my sexual orientation now and... I don't know. So, I didn't again after that.

But for some reason, I felt more comfortable Coming Out to my school. So I think, most of my school, at least most of the teachers know, but not my family. And here at the college, well, only a small group of people, meaning the ALLiES, know because I'm not really comfortable letting other people know just yet because I usually try to gauge how they feel first, before I actually say anything.

...Though there was one guy who, I guess, was coming on to me. He wanted to start a relationship and I said, "Sorry, I'm like that." (laughs) So, he backed off but he's cool about it. We're friends.

We Shouldn't Shove It Down People's Throats [Movie Transcript]

Mark: It doesn't say on my FaceBook profile outright that I like men, but it says it in my Music likes. So if people actually want to know more about me, they would read my profile.

James: Wait, what did you say?

Mark: It says in my Music likes, pretty much. Because I like Britney Spears. And a lot of female pop artists. (laughs) But if people ask, I will tell them about my sexuality and I won't deny my sexual orientation.

I believe that the gay community might be better off if we don't shove it down people's throats because this would allow the Religious Right and other homophobic people more time to gradually adjust. So if they get to know us first as people, rather than as the stereotypes being promoted like in San Francisco where they have all sorts of Pride Parades. For some people, that's all they know about gays.

So it'd be nice if they got to know us before they found out about our sexual orientation.

The Importance of Being OUT [Movie Transcript]

Sean: It is essential to be Out. I feel that, especially in today's generation, it's very difficult to tell your friends, it's very difficult to tell your family members but it's important to be Out. Most importantly to yourself.

I feel that "being gay," as we call it, is a lifestyle: it's not just a sexual decision, as some may feel. It impacts every aspect of your life: what job you get, where you live, the people you interact with. So being Out is very important.

It takes time. For some people, it takes a long, long time to Come Out to themselves, so then they can tell the people in their lives. But it's so important to be Out and to be comfortable with who you are and how you're living your life.

I've Known Since I Met You, HAVE YOU MET YOU?! [Movie Transcript]

Bill: OK, so my Coming Out was a little bit later than most people's. I didn't come out until I was 20. It was the end of my sophomore year of college.

I think I've known that I was gay probably since I was 7th grade, because I just kinda knew I liked boys. But I never really want to admit it to myself because I didn't want to be different. And I was also raised in a homophobic household where my dad constantly told me that gay people were less than everyone else, so I didn't want to be apart of that.

So I just repressed it within me until I came to college, at the end of my sophomore year. I first came out to one of my friends here and told her. I said, "I think I'm gay." And she goes, "Yeah... I've known that since I met you. HAVE YOU MET YOU? It's pretty obvious that you are!" So I was like, "Alright."

And I learned to accept myself pretty quickly, so I was happy with that. How I realized I was gay? I had a guy friend who was just my friend but I realized that, to me, he was more than a friend. I was really attracted to him. ...Nothing ever happened but it did get me to Come Out.

On the Gettysburg campus, a lot of people think that it's a really homophobic school but I haven't really had any problems. I'm out to all of my friends here. And I would say that I'm completely Out. If anyone ever asked me, I would always tell them. I don't just volunteer it... without there being a reason for me to tell somebody I'm gay usually. But I would say I'm totally Out.

At home... not so much. Both my parents know but they've asked me not to tell any other family members because, I guess, it'll embarrass them. So I haven't told any other family members.

So yeah, my Coming Out was definitely stressful because I knew it was going to be a tough issue at home. My mom's OK with it now, but for my dad, it's definitely tough for him. So I try to be understanding to the fact that he doesn't really accept it, but it's kinda hard.

JiMBO's Hollywood Screen Kiss [Movie Transcript]

(Playing ♫ This Is My Song ♫ by Petula Clark)

I know why the world is smiling,
Smiling so tenderly,
It hears the same old story,
Through all eternity




During my senior year of high school, I found a movie called Billy's Hollywood Screen Kiss, starring Sean Hayes a.k.a. "Jack" from Will & Grace. And I really enjoyed the movie--so much that it inspired me to come out to my two best friends at one of my Halloween parties.



Love, This is My Song
Here is a song,
A serenade to you

I showed them this clip of "The Tuxedo Dance" because I think it's one of the most romantic things I've ever seen on film.

The world cannot be wrong,
If in this world,
There is you.

The Initiation [Director's Commentary]

Well, as you can see, I'm standing in what is now an Overflow Parking lot. In 2005, when I first arrived on the Gettysburg College campus, I was immediately told to report there, but back then it was the Marching Band's Practice Field. I'm pretty sure the College paved over it sometime in '08.


In high school, I had been a prominent member of various Bands as well as the Drama Club, and I cherished the feeling of camaraderie and community I found in those clubs. So it was only natural for me to stick with it when I went to college... even I though I had absolutely NO desire to be a Music major or become a professional Clarinetist. Nope, not for me.


I KNOW, Carson Kressley graduated from Gettysburg! How random is that? Haha, the sad thing is, aside from politician Ron Paul, Carson Kressley (Class of 1991) is the biggest celebrity to come out (literally!) of Gettysburg College. During my freshman year, the college even sponsored a field trip to attend a private NYC party hosted by their beloved Queer Eye guy; President Haley Will, Jaimie Schock ('09), and Hanna Ackerman ('09) were the lucky Gettysburgians in attendance. Apparently, the President got drunk and made an ass of herself at the event... to the shock and awe of ABSOLUTELY NO ONE.


About two months ago, I went back to Gettysburg for the 2009 Gay And Lesbian Alumni reception, hosted by ALLiES. While I was there I had the pleasure of finally meeting someone who had interacted with Carson Kressley during his stint at Gettysburg. His former classmate told us that while Carson was here, he was a quiet transfer student who kept to himself, was not out of the closet, and was not an advocate for Gay Rights. Unlike other people, I wasn't shocked or disappointed... because I had already done my homework eight months prior.


Back in February, I was looking through the SPECTRUM (Yearbook) Archives and I noticed that Carson was not in the 1991 ALLiES club photo... but y'see, that ALLiES photo did not exist! It was a different time, a different political/social climate, and I don't blame him for not being comfortable enough to come out as an openly gay man in college. And for whatever reason, ALLiES was temporarily unavailable and/or insufficient as a support system. As I learned very quickly, in its 24-Year history, ALLiES has always been like a rising phoenix; every 4 or 5 years the group dies out completely only to be resurrected years later by a voracious group of freshmen. In 2005, we were those freshmen.


The summer after high school I often daydreamed about how wonderful college would be, and how I could finally start over with a clean slate, and be 100% honest with my classmates from the very beginning. Undoubtedly, it was a rude awakening when I arrived in Gettysburg only to feel like the ONE gay person on the entire campus. My hometown of Pasadena is a moderately conservative area and yet I had AT LEAST six gay/bi friends in high school. I never imagined that a college campus with students from around the globe would have LESS. It made absolutely no sense to me, so Thank God I met Jai in my creative writing class. Had she not come up to me after hearing my story, The Object of Obsession, I wouldn't have known an on-campus gay community even existed. Back then, it was very underground... literally.

The Initiation [Movie Transcript]

Hi, my name is James. I'm a Senior at Gettysburg College, and this is where our story begins--well, granted four years ago this wasn't a parking lot... but nevertheless, here we go.

I came to Gettysburg College from Pasadena, Maryland. The first thing I did when I got here was join the Marching Band; I had been playing for eight years. However, I was dismayed when I arrived to find that the last gay person to step foot here was Carson Kressley, of Queer Eye for the Straight Guy fame.

Dismayed by the lack of a Gay & Lesbian community here, I threw myself into my writing. After listening to one of my gayer stories, a friend named Jaimie Schock invited me to a meeting later that night. She told me to meet her in the Chapel and I had no idea why. I arrived and she led me down into the basement. And I had no idea where the hell we were going...

(Playing ♫ Over At The Frankstein Place ♫ by Alkaline Trio)
There's a light,
In the darkness of
Every bright life.

The GLiTTER Overture [Director's Commentary]

Hey, Everyone! It's James, the director of There Will Be GLiTTER, and I'd like to offer some Behind the Scenes Commentary on the finished product.

I had such a fun time designing the opening credits sequence! I remember, at the big premiere in Joseph Theater, the room was pulsing with electric anticipation: I'm very proud of the steady, stylistic climb throughout the Overture.

Surprisingly, the idea of placing a Rating card at the very beginning was a last-minute decision. I figured, I wanted to warn/prepare the audience in some way; I didn't want anyone to enter the movie cold. This is why each public screening was preceded by a short oral presentation. I'm a big fan of avant garde artwork, so I used a common strategy known as "defamiliarization," by taking conventional images and subverting them. Thus, the completely fabricated F Rating.


Still on the reflexivity kick, the camera countdown draws more attention to the medium. I wanted people to know that this is obviously a movie, which in hindsight, may not have been the best decision because it separates the viewer from the action. Mainly, the purpose of using that stock footage was purely stylistic. From concept to execution, my mission was to prove that documentaries could be just as stylish as narrative-driven features. I guess I'd describe my style as "neo-glam," a term borrowed from the Glam Rock Movement.

Ironically, the opening battlefield shots were actually the second-to-last shots of the entire shoot. They were definitely the easiest ones since they didn't require busy actors. The biggest obstacle was simply trying to not get arrested by the Gettysburg National Park police; after all, I was shooting various monuments without their permission. Whateva', I do what I WANT!


One special effect in particular, the color isolation, commonly referred to as "The Pleasantville Effect," was fun to create even though it was TE-DI-OUS. I added to effect to my arsenal after seeing a tutorial video at FinalCutKing.com. Overall, I am very pleased with the results. Fun Fact: That tracking shot from outside Albaugh House (then known as the ALLiES Theme House) really was my bedroom window.

Perhaps the most ironic thing about this opening sequence is that I CAN'T STAND that Christina Aguilera song--y'know, the one that says you're beautiful even though you're ugly and gay. >.< But even though I hate the original song, it's undeniable that "Beautiful" has become an anthem for the GLBTQ community. Personally, I've always been bitter about the song's success because the song itself was not aimed specifically at the GLBT community; the music video, on the other hand, prominently features a young gay couple. While browsing @ the iTunes Store, I fell in love with the 2009 "Beautiful" remix, retitled "You Are What You Are." I chose this song as the GLiTTER theme because Aguilera re-recorded the song, this time fully aware of the song/video's impact and importance to the GLBT community.


In terms of wardrobe, I was very particular about my outfit. After waiting two months for my sleeveless hoodie to arrive from 10Percent (aka Fabulous Gay HQ), I finally caved in, canceled the order, went to AMAZON and lo and behold, it arrived less than a week later. It was a perfect fit, and I love using the Pleasantville Effect to isolate the hoodie's bright teal trim.

It all ends with an homage to The Wizard Of Oz: the world around me becomes saturated with color as I jog past the Gettysburg College sign. It's definitely my favorite transition in the entire movie, but once again, it was a complex special effect. It may look simple, but that sequence is actually five cropped copies of the jogging sequence layered on top of each other, playing simultaneously. More than two hours were spent in the editing room trying to work out all the kinks in that 5-second segment.

The GLiTTER Overture [Movie Transcript]

This motion picture is Rated F.
[Playing ♫ You Are What You Are (Beautiful) ♫ by Christina Aguilera]
Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe.
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

You are what are
You are beautiful (You are, You are)
No matter what they say (You are what you are)
You are beautiful (You are, You are)
No matter what they say
No matter what they say, No matter what they do

Everywhere we go
The sun will always shine
And tomorrow we'll wake on the other side

THERE WILL BE GLiTTER

A Glimpse of Queer Life @ Gettysburg College

MAINSTREAM EXPOSURE: It's A Double-Edged Sword (Brett) [DELETED SCENE]

James: What is your opinion of the Showtime shows like Queer as Folk and The L Word? Do you think they are more honest portrayals because they show the ugly side of gay life?

Brett: The Showtime shows are good at dealing with things that are messy. I believe that life is messy at the end of the day, no matter who you are. To me, that's a good thing. But the flipside is, once you put it out in the public sphere--it being anything that's not clean and perky and FRIENDS--then there's this real problem that people start to use those characters as ways to stereotype you. So The L Word just becomes, "Oh! All lesbians do is screw each other... and like, make charts." And so, it's a double-edged sword.

It's interesting to me because I've seen both really good gay & lesbian films that handle those problems well and try to undercut them. The Broken Hearts Club, which is one of my favorite gay films, plays with the stereotypes and is well aware of the limitations and how it can become a type of entrapment. But you have to put it out there, right? Heterosexual, white upper middle class people have the privilege of not feeling like anything that's slight off-kilter is somehow problematic about their identity. And so it's gotta get out there and it has to keep getting out there, so that people just go, "Oh! People have problems." So then it brings on the hope that maybe we'll be humanitarians someday...(laughter) ...rather than trying to treat everyone as discreet categories of why you're disenfranchised.

James: Lastly, I'd like to ask your opinion of the LOGO network.

Brett: I don't get cable. Rather, I don't get LOGO because I have the most basic poor academics package. Yes, so it's actually disgraceful that I have this class on queer media and I have not yet done the time with LOGO. And for that, I deserve to be eternally damned. But I'm glad it's there. Sometimes I get a little worried that it could turn out like the LifeTime network, which had a good potential message (to empower women) but then it has gotten to the point where practically every female character on LifeTime is a victim of rape from her husband.

But I haven't seen the programming on LOGO. I don't actually know, I guess that's my project for Summer 2009. I've gotta get cable that is sufficiently sophisticated, i.e. not in South Central Pennsylvania. Does Gettysburg get LOGO?

James: No.

Brett: Of course not. Yeah, so right now I just get the hetero-normative channels. (laughter)

THE FEMINIZATION OF MEN IN JAPANESE ANIME/MANGA: Jet's A Big, Burly Man Type of Man! (Anime Panel) [DELETED SCENE]

Adaeze: So I picked up a manga (Japanese comic book) and I was just looking through thinking, "Wait. There's sex."

DeLue: And it's being sold in a convenience store! (laughter)

Adaeze: And there are random things happening, so I'm in the middle of the convenience store reading, then my 12-year-old host brother came over, so I was like, "Shit! (puts the magazine away) Hi, how are you?"

DeLue: In regards to the feminization of men, for the most part, that's only in hentai ("straight and gay porn") and yaoi ("boy sex"). In regular anime, you have a representation of men as very masculine, and also a representation of men who are far more feminine. And that's just representing the diversity of people. But y'know, you have people like Jet, who's like this big burly man kind of man... and then you have people like Spike, who are very much not big burly man kind of men. You know what I mean? But when you get into yaoi and hentai, you get much less of the big burly man type of man and more of the much not burly man type of man. Sorry for my... BIG BURLY MAN TYPE OF MAN!

Adaeze: DeLue's going crazy.

Lyndsey: So, DeLue, what type of man are you?

DeLue: I'm a BIG BURLY MAN TYPE OF MAN! (laughter) NOT A NOT BIG BURLY MAN TYPE OF MAN!

Adaeze: You wanna say it one more time?

Megan: I saw you. You were thinking about it.

Adaeze: We should just take a picture of you. (gesture)

DeLue: When you bring this up, you've gotta be like, this person's into hentai, this person's into anime, and this person's into BIG BURLY TYPE OF MAN! (flails) HE'S A MAN TYPE OF MAN BURLY TYPE OF BIRD BIG BIRD--

Megan: Just stop.

Adaeze: Yeah. (laughter)

Lyndsey: You almost said "bird."

DeLue: BIG BIRDY MAN TYPE OF MAN!

Adaeze: REALLY??!

I DON'T DO PHYSICAL INTIMACY: I Seriously Plan To Become A Nun (Miranda) [DELETED SCENE]

I fully support marriage equality, but I don't plan on getting married. I don't really... I don't know. I'm not really into relationships because I have a weird attitude, meaning I'm not a very physical person, so I don't think I'd be able to handle that sort of relationship requirement, I guess.

I love children, but I don't plan on having any of my own, so I'll probably end up teaching... Actually, to be honest, I want to become a nun, which may seem odd but that's something I've wanted to do for years. Yeah... so... Marriage and children are not for me.

NO, WE CAN'T STAY FRIENDS: All My Romantic Relationships Have Ended Badly (Jaimie) [DELETED SCENE]

James: So, typically, what's the usual Cause of Death of your relationships?"

Jaimie: Generally, the usual cause of death is the other person in the relationship. For instance, in one of my major relationships, the other person cheated on me. I ended it there. Usually, I'm the one who ends the relationship because of something the other person did or the way someone was acting. Then again, I haven't had enough relationships to really create a trend. Mostly, it's the other person.

James: Do you typically stay friends with your ex-girlfriends?

Jaimie: NO. Because like I've said, I've had very few relationships, but generally, they've ended badly. I like being in a relationship, I think I'm good at being in a relationship, which means either the other person has to mess up or I have to mess up--but I've been good so far. The few relationship's I've had ended poorly because something bad happened.

ON MY GAYDAR: Not Everyone's OUT Of The Closet (Bill) [DELETED SCENE]

So one really difficult thing about dating in the gay world is dealing with closeted people. Gay people have GAYdar: We know when someone's gay, we're not stupid, we can figure this out pretty quickly.

I had a friend, and I knew he was gay. We hung out a lot and became really good friends and I became really attracted, but he was still trying to hold onto the fact that he was straight. He still is today.

I mean, maybe he is gay, maybe he is not, but it plays with gay people's minds a little bit when they have straight friends who they're attracted to because they can't have them. Although they've made this great emotional connection with them and feel like he/she's possibly their soulmate, they don't even have a shot! And it's really difficult because you can totally fall in love with someone and they're not even the right sexual orientation for you to be together.

So I think that's a challenge for a lot of gay people and it definitely has been a challenge for me at least twice.