OK ----------> LOLICON! [Transcript]

(Playing ♫ Fett's Vette ♫ by MC Chris)

Megan: You'd be surprised by how many people, like just on campus, actually like tentacle sex. It's gross!

Adaeze: Who the hell likes tentacle sex?

DeLue: Actually, you shouldn't put that in the movie.

Megan: (laughs) Don't put that in the movie!


KATSUCON 2009 (Anime Convention)
Crystal City, VA
Megan: Yaoi is explicit man-on-man action. It doesn't always have to be a man; it could be a boy... sadly. But there is definite sex: sex is shown, you can see it, it happens. Shonen-ai is cute. Shonen-ai literally translates to "boy love." It's really cute, usually between two high schoolers. It shows the progression of the relationship, and at the end, you know they "get together," but sex doesn't happen. Shojo-ai is the exact same as shonen-ai, but shojo means "girl," so it's "girl love." It's cute, it shows the progression of the relationship, they kiss, that happens. In yuri, lesbian sex happens.

80 MINUTES LATER

Megan: They have a picture of a little girl, as she gets older, and they have a line (getsture) that says OK and then it's--

DeLue: NOT Okay--

Megan: --Lolicon!-- Which they didn't say was not okay!

DeLue & Megan: (Laughter) OK... Lolicon.

DeLue: Not making any value judgments here!

Adaeze: Just be aware, do not read that because I made the mistake. I was like, "Oh yaoi!" NO! I got shotacon and I was scarred for life!

Megan: I do believe it's actually illegal here in the States.

Adaeze: Yeah, so if you have it, then you might go to jail. And WHY DO YOU HAVE IT?

DeLue & Adaeze: WHY??

Megan: SHAME ON YOU!

DeLue: YOU'RE A BAD PERSON!! (laughter) ...I'm not supposed to refer to the camera, am I?

TIME LAPSE TRANSITION

Megan: Futanari, like I said, breaks it down to "dickgirl." It's usually a woman who--I'm not gonna say that they all do--has extremely large breasts, a vagina, no testicles, and a huge penis--

DeLue: (gestures) MASSIVE PENIS!

Megan: --where the clitoris is supposed to be. So, th-th-that...

DeLue: That's what you've got. (laughter)

Megan: That's what it is.

DeLue: It is what it is.

Megan: Of course, y'know, they'll have the ones with whom you can't really tell; they'll have a flat chest but they'll still have the peni and the vagina and it's not cool.

Adaeze & DeLue: (mockingly) Peni?

DeLue: It's a penis!

Megan: Shut up!

DeLue: Finish the word, you're missing one letter on the end!

Megan: Peni!

DeLue: SSS!!

TIME LAPSE TRANSITION

Megan: Ahh, furs!

DeLue: She's the furry girl.

Megan: I love furs. A "furry" is a person who usually--I don't want to say atunes himself or sees himself as an animal.

DeLue: They try to become like an animal.

Megan: Yeah. And there are people who take it to an extreme. There are people who do that in every category, and then there are the people who know when to turn it on and off, so... don't get that twisted.

TIME LAPSE TRANSITION

DeLue: That's all that the anime is: a projection of fantasy. And it's been happening forever. Back in the '80s, the feminists said, Look at Barbie. If she were real, Barbie would have to be 6'6" with size 5 feet in 8-inch heels and double-D breasts. They did this projection of what Barbie would look like if she were a real person's size and it was ridiculous! There's been a projection of fantasies forever, and anime is just the most recent and most prolific of these projections.

Adaeze: There are a lot of weird things in anime.

James: And luckily, anime seems all-inclusive with things.

DeLue: It is very inclusive with things. It's very accepting too. If you're into tentacle rape, we will make an anime for you! (applause) We're not going to judge you, we're not going to say "You're a bad person," even though you are! We're just going to make a tentacle rape movie for you and you can buy it.


Adaeze: --Tentacle sex, WOOOO!! (gestures)

DeLue: So you'll get your tentacle sex even though tentacles don't rape people in real life, we'll get your money, and everybody's happy! And that's how anime works. With anime, we will play upon your fantasies, give you something you desire, and get from you something we desire, money.

Rebecca: Which is why a lot of people hate people that get into anime!

DeLue: Why?

Rebecca: Y'know, my sister got into the anime, went to Otakon and everything. Our entire family was hoping that she would "get out of the phase"--

Megan: Oh my god, my mom did too--

Rebecca: --And then she did.

(LAUGHTER)

Megan: (gestures) Here's my self esteem at the beginning of that conversation, and (gestures) here's my self-esteem at the end of that conversation.

PAINFUL AND UNNECESSARY: My Irrational Fear of Coming Out as a SINGLE Gay Man (James)

The first time I admitted to someone I was gay was actually in the 10th grade (2001), I believe. Back then, my friend, known around NHS as “Big Gay John,” and I would IM each other almost every night. On one fateful night, I just had the urge to share the secret with someone. I shared one of my favorite gay porn sites with him, and for a while, it brought us closer... until he pressured me into coming out on a wider scale by playfully teasing me in public. I wasn’t ready to tell everyone, and I refused to come out as a single gay man. That would be pathetic and unnecessary.

The second time I came out was more formal and well thought-out. At my annual Halloween party in 2004, I came out to two of my best friends, Nelly (LF) and Alexis (SF). I pulled them aside and showed them my favorite scene from Billy’s Hollywood Screen Kiss: the tuxedo waltz between Sean Hayes and Brad Rowe. However, when other friends at school started asking me about it, I retreated back into my bisexual act. I wish I hadn’t just assumed that my friends would keep quiet on the subject… after all, I didn’t tell them that they couldn’t spread the news.

I didn’t come out to my family until the summer of 2007, and it was certainly NOT on my terms. Somehow this gay porn distributor had my home address but my father/brother’s name, so my father saw one of the catalogs. Of course, I’m not stupid enough to have porn sent to my home address, so I’m still in the dark about what really happened. When my dad found this mail, he immediately accused my brother and was even threatening to kick him out of the house, but I stepped up and said it was mine (even though it wasn’t), and my dad just dropped the matter entirely.

In the following days he did pull me aside for short lectures, but he was/is not well-informed enough to do that successfully. This man watches CNN everyday, and yet he believes that all gay men are promiscuous, that HIV/AIDS is a gay disease, and that faith in God would turn me around… even though he is not religious at all. It was all very hypocritical of him to preach to me, and I let him know that LOUD AND CLEAR. He’d ask questions like, “How do you know you’re gay?” And I’d respond, “Well, I’m physically attracted to men, not women. I’ve always been gay but I didn’t fully realize it until puberty.” …And then he would just go back to watching TV.

Although I’m happy that my family was finally allowed to acknowledge what they’d known all along, I do regret that my mother and my sister had to hear it from my father and not from me. Of all people, my mother has always taken a genuine interest in my life, encouraged me to follow my dreams, gotten to know my friends, supported whatever I wanted to do… of all people, she deserved to hear it straight from me.

When I talked to her about it that night, I had to fight the tears because I kept something so big from the most important person in my life. And the tears really started welling up when she told me how she loved me no matter what, and that in her heart, she always knew. My father never admitted that, but he was the main person who made me feel emasculated as a child, the main person who teased for being even remotely feminine, and yet he claimed that he “couldn’t even wrap his head around the idea.” Yeah… right!

I have lost quite a few friends from high school after coming out. However, I think they separated themselves from me because they felt lied to—not because they hate gays. Typically, I’m very comfortable coming out to people I’ve just met. I guess it’s my atonement for all the years I stayed silent. I think the biggest problem on our campus is that not enough people are open and willing to talk about being gay… which has been THE major obstacle in shooting this documentary.

Although I’m very OUT to the openly gay professors and I’m willing to talk to them about my past-and-present relationships both in and out of the classroom, I don’t discuss my homosexuality with the vast majority of the other professors… unless they ask. When topics related to queer theory pop up in class, I usually won’t give a personal example because a) I don’t want to become the “token gay” in the class, and b) I don’t want my personal life to affect my grade positively or negatively. Some professors are more conservative than others, and if I don’t know where they stand, I don’t like to risk it. But I don’t bother switching pronouns if the professor calls on me specifically, because I know everyone in the class has FaceBook, so they already know what I’m into.